P.S. (POST SCRIPT) to yesterday’s question of whether mankind is moved more by fear or by love…

Response… Based on the research and my experiences documenting and writing human stories and watching humanity deal with great upheavals… I would say that man kind is not moved by fear as a force, but that they are moved by Love.

I have discerned that the greatest fear of humanity and their biggest question is whether they are loved… I think this is what moves humanity to their greatest deepest fear, (of not being loved and worthy of love). It is not fear itself but whether they as a species are loved by universe, creation, god or whatever…

It is this question and secret fear, which I believe has haunted our species from day one, making them enact the greatest horrors, and greatest hypocritical systems and the most heartfelt quest to improve. But to me, love does not have to be earned, nor should shame, blame and guilt be a factor to prove us worthy of love. I believe we should just be, and in being we can see and refine ourselves and know from seeing our true selves and our truth that we are, indeed, worthy of love.

This is the reason why at 22-23 my life’s journey led me to investigate this truth that most perceive as kids, because there is beauty and harmony in nature, and in our true nature; there is an order to the universe. I was confident of this, and though I did not set out originally to empirically prove this by using my life as a guinea pig, I knew deep within me that it was true, I just had to figure out how to understand and read the script of the universe, and provide evidence of this truth in a language everyone could understand…thereby proving the true meaning of existence.  The script is our interactions with the world and each other, like atoms moving about.

Through this I finally came to the answer in the twins of Love and Truth. Mankind can begin to feel safe by understanding and seeing evidence that the universe is created from love and truth, but, like a treasure hunt, it has to be understood not through the perspective of our own selves but by experiencing the truth of what Is, not through the illusion. Then, I feel, man can relax, and let go of our inherited (learned?) fear and doubt… the fear of being alone and unloved in the universe.

This is the fundamental reason why I believe that we as a species went into the land of forgetfulness (dreaming and death) to explore the truth of our existence by exploring nature, then our own natures, to understand that we were not only created from the vibration of truth and love, but that we came into existence as the embodiments of truth and love. And only by figuring this out with reason and rationale (not faith) could the hearts of humanity be finally appeased. “Obiekwe,” which is me saying in Igbo, that if my life’s work researching the truth of our species…what moves us and our universe is correct…then the heart of a whole world would be appeased… Obiekwe…

And to me, only when we know with total surety that we are literally loved and all we have to do is to learn to read our natural reality where all truths are laid bare, then and only then can we rise to that love and finally begin to evolve as a species…because we know with proper evidence that we are loved… and that we are not alone. This is why I know my investigation into the nature of existence is relevant to us all. I wished to find out what would happen to one who remained true to that concept, despite being challenged by every one I encountered (including my mother and family, god bless them.. she asked me for evidence). I fought to stay true to that fact (no longer a theory)… right to the end.

I am not rich in money, I have no houses, nor do I have anything that equates with success here. I have lived alone and in isolation for most of my life, abandoned by most who loved some part of me. Even now, I do not even have my body or consciousness fully cooperating with my being. My very existence here on earth might be in peril, yet I feel so victorious, serene and content just because I am satisfied that I was able to go to the end of a journey, to prove a truth I knew from the very beginning of my existence (and which others do as well but have forgotten).

I did not wish to write anymore, but I realized that I had not given the response to my own question… It is love that makes the world go round, even here in New York, and even if it is moved to fear by the question and idea of its absence. Love.. and truth (that which remains true) makes the world go round and this brings forth evolution. Nnamdi (my father is here- the unseen hand, the wind, the guide) Obi ekwe… the heart is finally appeased… Umeano… by the breath of life proven true as the breath of love… on Mother Earth… M.E.

Love light and light world

E

Good bye

Emeka Kolo.